it's not easy...

ahh!!

how do I start this~

seriously~

I'm not good at expressing myself..

so I tend to make a lot people misunderstood with me~

LIKE A LOT!

and I really don't mean it~

and hey..

no one is perfect in this world ryte?

=)

what I'm trying to tell here is..

I hate it when I can't show my real feeling to the

guy who I fall for..

I bet until now he has no clues that he's already in my heart~

I fall for him

ever since on the first day he talked to me..

yeah..I know

that I always

pretended not to notice him..

he can never know how much I wanna see him everyday~

the prob is...

I'm sure that he thinks that I'm running away from

him or something...

*cuz most of the guy that I like..

always thought that I was never into them..

as I tend to hide my feelings.. (>_<)

and no one knows who I really love*

I really dunno if he ever falls for me before...

I really dunno..

and I can't seem to ask him... (>_<)

eventhough I am totally an open-minded girl..

I can easily talk to anyone about ANYTHING!

but I can't seem to show him that I'm into him..

gosh~!

what is so hard about it???

I guess I noe y..

I never really talk to him before..

n are we even friends?

alryte..

maybe just friends..

or even LESS than that...

and nowadays..

I just don't tell people who

I actually really really really

LOVE..

..I have my own reason for that..

I would feel way more comfortable if

people just don't talk bout who I like..

yeah..that's why it's always a secret~

the thing is..

this is how I feel...

urghhh~!!

I'M TOTALLY CONFUSED

of everything that is happening around me~!!

it's not like I wanna be his gf or something..

but I just can't get rid of this feeling...

and it's bothering me..

not in my studies....

just when I'm not thinking of anything...

he seems to pop-up in my mind..

and

honestly...

no one knows how much ...